So eh. Life. I'm so sorry for all the unanswered stuff, notes and whatnot.
As it is a matter of perspective, most of you probably haven't even noticed and are just going "Oh?" while I'm duct taping my pants around walls and going crazy. But at least I get to vent out my feelings here. Walls of text incoming.
You may have noticed the longest period of inactivity from me since the day I started digitally painting. So what happened?
Well, first off all.. Vocational education (University of Applied Sciences), is, damn, crazy. Even some my friends in universities have way more free time due to the nature of theory based studies. But for me? I don't even know where the months went, the sheer amount of raw work (it's all fun though! But it's just a plenty of unavoidable work) pretty much makes me lose the sense of time altogether.
Feels like it has been just two months since my last uploaded work, even though it has been darn eight months. School combined with all the social stuff involved, the need to hang out with my old friends, and ongoing relationship (two or three days a week at her place near the school) together have hogged my time completely. For the hours they don't grab from me, I just want to chill out and empty my brain playing or just laying in bed and enjoying the deliciousness of "nothing". I try to schedule stuff well, I have to schedule stuff somehow, but damn. I have to cut the slack even more.
Heck, I had more time for art and stuff during the freaking military than I do now. The military at least didn't encumber any of my free weekends or holidays.
The work pileup got especially insane during the first half of this year. Gotta say though, it makes me feel pretty alive afterwards when spending 10 hours at school each day for a whole week designing a café, or spend over 20 hours from a weekend photographing outside, or spending two days visiting art museums and then writing two art history essays. It's fun, I've learned a lot. Got good grades thus far. I feel great. But among it all I've had to postpone quite a bit of stuff from my past daily schedules. Most notably artsy and pony stuff, which I felt I needed to take a small break from anyway.
Even though I've been drawing and painting other small things for the time being, I've mostly kept a break from art. I've also had to take a break from deviantart and ponies to keep myself from burning out in thoughts. The other spark to this turning point was when my GPU gave up and it took almost a month for me to replace it. My way of "I'll answer notes and comments in bulks" ended up being like shooting myself to the leg. The way I simply snapped and turned my back on this place and artsy duties was pretty shitty from me though.
I guess I need a blog or something similar for small yet numerous updates, for some reason maintaining deviantart feels like a huge amount of work. I guess it's the urge to keep things neat and regular in a way. Blog could be a place where I could upload and update everything pretty loosely. I'd appreciate opinions on the matter of which blog site would be suitable.
But now that I dared to step into art again and even upload something.. We'll see if things ease up before summer holiday. I feel bad and I should feel bad, but I'd feel more and more bad if I didn't speak up before summer. And oh yeah, this all came to me just in time for the new season of pone. Let's see if this train gets back on the rails again. Luckily the long Easter holiday lined up with another (mostly) free weekend so I've had time to start getting my shit together here.
Listening to: Timeless Miracle - The Red Rose